This started out as a 'share' on my Facebook, but after writing what seemed like the longest status to go with it, it seemed more appropriate to bring here.
I've been getting a LOT of questions lately about how I could just walk away from my dreams and "quit" doing what I love. All I can really give for an answer is that God must have a bigger and better path to lead me down. I may not see it or know what it is right now, but that doesn't really matter, does it?
Listen, I could "easily" do what I needed to do to get back to work as a Makeup Artist. I say "easily" because it's not as easy for me (or my growing family) at the moment. But the thing is, I'm not sure that's what I want anymore. The only thing that's gotten me through the last three months is truly believing and having faith that God is pulling me in a different direction for a reason.
I had an amazing 7.5 year run. I learned SO much, met some of the best people in my life (who are now some of my best friends), I got to live my dreams with so many successes and am proud of what I accomplished. I also learned some HARD lessons. Lessons that I may not have learned with out being forced to "quit".
Some days, it kills me - literally breaks my heart - to see images produced by my favorite people. Images that I should have (and would have) been a part of had I not been forced to close. Images and photos aren't just images or photos. They're stories. I got to, for so many years, tell my story - stories deep within my heart and soul - through makeup. Not only did I get to tell stories, creatively, but I had the world's best clients. Client's who trusted me in so many ways. Client's that I truly loved.
So please wish the best for me and pray that whatever comes next fulfills me as much, if not more, than what my dream job did for so many years. Losing my business and career absolutely rocked my world. It turned my whole world upside down. But this upside-down world is starting (just barely starting!) to look like it could be for a better purpose.
My therapist gave me a list of objectives to work on in the coming months... and one of them is seeing opportunities even in the worst of times/situations. It's a hard habit to change, but knowing and feeling deep down that there WILL be some good to come out of this is a start.